One Man Mormon Blues Band: Music

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II Nephi 1:4 "For, behold, . . . I have seen a vision, in which I know that Jerusalem is destroyed; . . . ."

I have watched my parents pass away. I have seen their confusion develop about time and place. I have seen them filled with regrets at what seems to me and others to have been exemplary lives.

We don't know when Sariah dies. But it appears Lehi was alone at the end. What was it like to be in a strange land. Having lived an exciting life, filled with visions and dreams, and always seeking a future home that was now foreign to him; how would Lehi feel?

Would he sometimes feel confused about past and present? Would he be sorrowful to learn his childhood home was destroyed? Would he think that he could have done better if he had just handled things differently? Would he be less sure of himself and his beliefs and commitments? Would he be tired and ready to go be with Sariah?

I think so.

Locked in combat with my memory
Is it the past or the future I see
Forward and back a soul at war
I really can't tell what's real anymore

I've lived my life in black and white
I've seen the truth in dark and light
But now I see in shades of gray
Imperfections in the clay

I get so lost and confused anymore
Sitting in the sun outside my back door
Where do I belong in this new land
I've built my house upon the sand

Soft as smoke in the morning air
Is it a dream I see you there
In my dream my distant home
Reduced to ashes sticks and stones

I'm lost within this middle land
I wish I could start all over again
With truth as my sword and faith as a shield
before my regrets and memories I yield